Tuesday, October 17, 2006

Our Sweet Cinnamon

First of all...VERY COOL! I want to thank all of you for your comments on my previous post. I KNEW there was a bunch of you out there that have been reading my blog, since my site meter count is so high. You really made me happy to see so many comments...honest! It made me feel good....especially today. I hope that you all become regulars...no pressure though, but I would enjoy it. Thanks again...and if there are more of you, please feel free to post. :0)

Today at 4:40 p.m. we had to put our dog Cinnamon down. It was one of the hardest things I've ever done. We have had her for over 11 years....longer than we've had Cole. She has been a huge part of our family and the only pet we've had for so long. She really was the best dog, with no bad habits. She was very protective of our family. Whenever I would go run errands I would tell her that she was in charge and to watch the house while I was gone...she always did. About a week ago we noticed that she stopped eating...not even treats. She would drink a little water, but then threw it up. Then she lost all of her muscle tone and couldn't walk or stand anymore. Then her stomach started to bloat. Seriously...a week ago she was fine. It all happened so fast. It was so painful to watch her suffer, but I didn't want to let her go. I had a battle going on inside of me not wanting her in pain, but also not wanting to be the one who decides when it's her time to go. You know what I mean??? So I decided to call a friend who is a vet for large breed animals (cows, horses, etc.) He came over and put her down and he helped Mark bury her in our back yard. He said her stomach had filled with fluid and that he could feel a huge tumor the size of a baseball in her tummy. He said it was the right time to put her down, which made me feel better the decision to do it. I'm so grateful to him. We waited until after school got out to give all the boys a chance to say good-bye...except for Chad. I did write him a letter yesterday to tell him we were planning to do it. These boys really love that dog. I have cried so much these past few days. I sat out in the yard with her last night and said my good-byes. I was bawling. While she was staring at me, I told her how much I love her and I thanked her for protecting my family and our home all of these years and that we would never forget her....and we NEVER will!!! She is in our hearts forever.

17 comments:

Chickenbells said...

Oh honey, I'm so sorry. I just had to make this hard decision about a dear kitty member of my family in April...the day after I got back from a 2 week vacation...it's just never the right time is it? I see my sweet kitty boy a lot in my meditations, and I also had a long conversation with him before hand, and he was really ready to go when we got to the vet, he was just so calm. I think in the end, you just give them all the love they gave you by helping them go...especially if they're so sick. So...big hugs to everyone, remember all the joy you had in your life because of Cinnamon, and know that she'll still be protecting your family, just from a different place.

Valerie said...

it's too early for me to be crying this hard. sweetie, i'm so sorry about Cinnamon..we have a furbaby, and sometimes i just look at him & try to imagine life without him..and it's impossible to conceive!
huge hugs to you & your boys & i'll echo chickenbell's thought that Cinnamon's watching the house from heaven.

SmileyCarrie said...

I'm so sorry to hear this Jolene.. I'm susch a huge dog lover too, and I completely understand how they're not just your pet but a member of your family. Thinking of you *hugs*

Pam said...

OMGosh I am in tears reading this. I'm so so sorry for you all! I know exactly what you are going through and it's not easy! I've been where you are and I am sending you lots and lots of hugs! Just know that you did the right thing by not letting her suffer. Hugs girl!

Missy's Blog said...

Jolene, I am so, so sorry about Cinnamon. I know what a very hard decision this was. Just a couple of months ago we had to make this decision with our dear, sweet Wyatt (he was also 11). We want them to stay with us as long as possible ... and it's so hard for us to let them go. Making the decision for them is so very hard. Many times I prayed God would decide for us ... but in the end we had to decide. Just know you DID make the right decision and hopefully your heart will be comforted by knowing she is out of pain. I'm sending a gigantic hug your way ... and so is Griffin.

Jody said...

I've been in your shoes, please know that you made the right decision...my prayers and thoughts are with you and Cinnamon!

Caroline said...

I am so sorry for you loss. It's never easy losing a pet. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

Andi said...

Jolene, my heart goes out to you on the loss of your dear sweet Cinnamon. I cried when I read your blog this morning. May your memories of the fun times you had with Cinnamon comfort you at this time.

Jen said...

AWWWW...you did the right thing Jolene. It sucks...and there's nothing I can say to make it better....big hugs!

Look at your Ms. Popularity....26 comments, holy crap!

Chris said...

You still have pappy and he is a good dog also. Never an easy decision but letting them suffer isn't a good idea either. "All dogs go to heaven" He is protecting a very important place now!!

Jacquie said...

:-( So sorry, we are cat poeple here but I will never forget when my cat was hit by a car when I was pregnant with my 1st DD I was devastated. These animals really become a part of us dont theny.

Ruth McIntyre said...

Jolene, my name is Ruth McIntyre from Ottawa Canada, the nations capital. I intended to send this yesterday but chickened out. After an after dinner glass of wine tonight I said...what the heck?
I discovered your blog through Tember and have been very interested in the recuperation of baby Mark. I had a new grandaughter born around the same time so you can see why the interest. He looks so beautiful and I cried when he came home on Fri. 13th, and just in time for his daddy's birthday ...what an awesome story. I so hope he continues to do well. I told Tember I was reluctant to read other blogs because I felt like I was eavesdropping. As you can tell. I'm fairly new to the "net" I too have 5 wonderful children, all out on their own, some with families started, and all with very good careers. I thank God every day for my blessings. Take care, Jolene, I know you are one busy lady, going in many directions at once. All the best to you and your wonderful family.

Amanda said...

I never own a dog prior to marrying my husband and I am very attached to my dog now and would be heartbroken. I am so sorry that you lost your freind. Your family is in our prayers.

Kassie said...

I'm sorry to read about Cinnamon. I too have a 'spicy'dog named Ginger and I dread the day that she dies. Sometimes I wish she would run away and be done with it, but she tried that over the 4th of July and it was just a miserable. I hope you all have peace and can remember the great times you had with your pet.

Kelly Walker said...

So sorry to hear that about Cinnamon. I totally understand and cried when I read this. Our 6 month old puppy died on his own 2 weeks ago. (and had the same symptoms as Cinnamon) Even though he was only with us for a short time it hurts like crazy so I can just imagine how much it would hurt after such a long time.

homedaisy said...

hi jolene,
i'm just catching up on your news. i am so sorry. our dog is eight. i dread the day, but know it is coming. blessings to you...

Kristan said...

Jolene, So sorry to read about Cinnamon. We are a dog family also and they are just like my kids. I know it must have been really hard for you and your family.

On a happier note B&B look so happy and that little baby of theirs is so precious. How nice to have them at home with you at this time when he is so tiny.Lucky boy to have such a fun grandma.

Love the little jars - I think I am going to have to steal that idea. What a perfect VT & teacher gift.

You have so much good stuff going on. I just love to read your blog. Oh and by the way - have I told you that your house is absolutely just beautiful. Just looks like a great place to call home.