Wednesday, February 27, 2008

I'm in a mood...

...Not a good one. I'll be back on when I can find my smile. Maybe tomorrow...maybe not. :o(
Okay, so I should probably explain a little better. Have you ever had one of those days that nothing goes right...in fact, everything goes wrong? I'm talking a whole lotta little things, that individually you can handle, but combined is a bit overwhelming. Well that was my day. Then last night I ran up to the store to grab some milk before going to young women's and for some reason I couldn't hold it in anymore. I sat in my car in the crowded parking lot for 30 minutes crying. I was never able to compose myself enough to even go in the store, so I cautiously drove home and went to bed. I let down the girls and the leaders. I feel terrible!
Today is a new day. I'm still not happy, but I have a lot of things I'm responsible for today, so I have to put my feelings and emotions on the back burner and suck it up for the greater good...if that's at all possible.

28 comments:

Marilyn said...

sending hugs your way....i feel your pain...i have been in a "mood" for 10 days but getting over it finally. I hope you're not getting sick!♥ ♥ ♥

Valerie said...

hugs sweetie. i hope you find some sunshine in your soul soon!

~LisaLou~ said...

Bummer! I hope you find your smile soon...Your YW handouts are so cute. I loved getting nice things like that when I was in YW's. You are very thoughtful! ~Lisa

1RadChick said...

Whatever's going on, hang in there, honey... x0x0x0x -Me

Coleen said...

Okay, I guess I'm gonna have to call you tomorrow and find out what the crap is going on!! I had no idea anything bad was happening. See, that's what sucks about living so far. I hope things get better.

Kimberly said...

Hope you have a good day and feel better soon!

Tiffany (aka T, Tiffers, Tiffster, and Pally) said...

Hang in there Jolene! I was in a bloody awful mood yesterday. I recommend taking to one's bed and watching some Gilmore Girls re-runs.

carbo loading is also quite beneficial!

Deanna (dw) Shain said...

Hey girlie:
What's Up?! I haven't read blogs for a bit and the first one I go to says this? That will not do. What can I do to help set the world right? How about a complimentary stay at Washington's most fun retreat house? Okay, so airfare may not be included, but it's still cheaper than therapy, right?! ;) Seriously, if there is anything I can do from here, you just say the word! Hope your day brightens and the smile returns! 'Cause let;s face it, you have a pretty great one!
HUGE {{{HUGS}}},
-d.
-d.

familywithfivekids said...

Jolene - you do so much for so many. It is O.K. to take a much needed time-out! Recognize all the good you do. You are a-m-a-z-i-n-g!

Desi said...

You always brighten my day when I come to you site, and I'm so sorry that you are struggling right now. I completely understand about having those days. I've had a pot of overdone (mushy) macaroni and cheese send me to tears. Hang on and know that thoughts and prayers are coming your way.

Briana said...

Sorry you're feeling so sad. I've been there too. Hope something (or someone) helps to brighten your day soon! Now would be a great time for those boys to do something without being told or to give you a hug "just because" or Mark to bring home flowers. Maybe one of them is reading this and will take the hint!

Cindi said...

Jolene! I hope you are feeling better by the time you read this. We all get to the place you are right now. In fact, I took a "mental health" day off from work today just to get a few hours to myself while Allison is in school. Things have been non-stop for weeks and I just needed a little time to myself.
Take some time for yourself. Your family will understand.
Cindi

bs honey said...

Awww, Jolene. This is probably burnout. You are always so busy doing for others.
This is a perfect time to pamper yourself. So get the "have to's" that you spoke of done today. Then let your family know that it's your turn and do what makes you happy for a day.
And, DO let them read Briana's comment.
Lots of hugs from me.

Colors of Me said...

hugs to you jolene - sounds like you need some YOU time - to recharge. i don't think that it is possible for you to let anyone down - all the good you do for everyone - i think they will all understand - and i don't just mean the people that are close by you - you touch so many more than that - i know when i am having a not so good day - i stop by your blog - half a country away - because i know that i will feel uplifted and inspired after reading your posts - hang in there - you are an awesome person who deserves some time just for you - more hugs!!!!!

Kim said...

{{Jolene}} I know that place you are at right now. I'm there and I hope that I don't stay long. The final straw was this morning when I went to take Mark to school. Elizabeth went out of town on a class trip so her car was in the drive. Guess what? I forgot it was there and when I back out--yep. You got it right. I had a good cry on the way to the autoparts store to get some scratch remover.

Cherie said...

Jolene - you are well loved! Even by those who don't "know" you! LOL
Cry all you want! It's good for you! I cried for 3 hours straight last night and felt so much better this morning! It's a new day! By tonight, I will probably be crying again... but I know that is okay also. Sometimes we all just got to do our best! And "endure" to the end!

Jacquie said...

((Hugs))

Kelly said...

Jolene...I hope that you are back in your sunny mood soon!

Nina Diane said...

awww Jolene! bloggy hugs to you! you are always on the go and helping others, you need to take some time for youself. take care

Elisha said...

Oh Jolene. I've so had those days. And it's so hard when you're in that moment to even think that things could ever get better, but they always do. I wish I was closer to give you a big hug!

Mary Jo said...

{{{Jolene}}} Even SuperWoman needs a break every now and then. You are so created and talented and.... BUSY!! Take some much-need "me" time. Soak in a bath, do some scrapping, take a deep breath. YOU DESERVE IT! :O)

Mary Jo said...

Oops - you are "created" but I really meant "creative!" hee! hee!

Patti said...

Girl I hope you are feeling better. Sometimes it just gets to be TOO much. You need a hug!

Valerie said...

it does get to be too much sometimes. life is so overwhelming at times and i think it's OK to just lose it.

you didn't let them down. it's just as important to take care of yourself, otherwise, you won't be able to care for others.

have a hug and a prayer on me!

Diana said...

What happened to that woman who was going to take time for herself in the new year. As much as we don't like to we can say no once in a while. You do so much! On a brighter note though Chad will be home soon so you have so much to look forward to!
Do what you have to and procrastinate about the rest. Take your time... Life is too short!
Huggs!

Jane said...

((hugs)) I hope that the world is sunny and bright for you again soon.

A good cry is always helps me feel better. And eating that whole box of thin mints might just do the trick if the cry doesn't.

More ((hugs))

velvet brick said...

Oh Jolene! I've been so busy with a school play this week that I am late visiting... and I am sorry for your tears. But you know...we ALL have these moments...I do! We can only hold so much! Sometimes we have to let it all go...tears and all. You haven't let anybody down... everyone understands all that you do and if you needed to take an evening to care for yourself, the world understands. Slow down, take a deep breath, spend some time in the beautiful sunshine today, and know that it is and will be a-o-k.! : )
xox
VB

stacijo said...

Oh Jolene!!
I'm so sorry that you're going through this, but I do understand!! Just the other night I ended up crying because of all the "little" things that just build up until you can't take it any longer!! You are a strong woman, and you didn't let anyone down. Remember, make time for yourself!! You're not being selfish, it will make your life a little bit better and in return you're a little bit rejuvented to start to give more of yourself. You are such a giver!!! Please don't be so hard on yourself!!!