Friday was so crazy busy. I barely had time to gather enough stuff to make ONE layout before I had to head to town. I so wanted to do more. Next month I will be more prepared. I am pretty happy with the layout I did get done. It's from our trip to Catalina Island. That was one of our destination stops when we went on our 20th anniversary cruise a few years ago. It was so fun to scrapbook in 12X12 format. I'm doing the whole cruise album in that size. I really had a great time with my friends. It was some much need fun/creative girl time.Angie just wrapped up her 12 week get in shape challenge and asked for us to email her our success stories. My goal when I started this thing was to get in better shape so I wouldn't die at girls camp. Here is what I wrote her...
I can't really count mine as a success story besides the fact that I did lose 7 pounds. I've carried around so much guilt for not giving this challenge my full effort like I really wanted to. Depression and personal trials got me down. I'm making up for that now, by getting my rear in gear after the challenge is over. I've exercised for 2 days now and my body hurts so bad from top to bottom. Oddly enough I really like the pain. I'm proud of myself that I worked hard enough to make myself hurt. I'm not giving up. I can do this! Obviously I didn't die at girls camp, but I thought it was a real possibility. I even bought new undergarments "just in case". LOL! I struggled getting up and down the hills in the mountains. My legs were burning and it was so hard to breathe. As I watched the young skinny leaders get around with no problem what so ever and them not really understanding why I was having such a difficult time, I couldn't help but think to myself "hey skinny girl, you want to know what it's like...how about you strap on a 50 pound bag of dog food around your waist and add massive menstrual cramps to the mix and we'll just see how well you do....not so easy is it? Welcome to my world!" Isn't that attitude just terrible?! I'm totally over being having mean thoughts and feeling sorry for myself. I know the skinny girls had to work hard to have their bodies while I was letting mine go. I had no right to judge. It's my turn to work hard now. I have a renewed positive aspect on my life and how I want to look and more importantly how I FEEL. I want to FEEL energized, empowered, confident, strong, young, happy and beautiful. I've decided that I'm worth the effort.Thank you Angie for all of your support, humor, kindness and motivation. You are my rock and I adore you. I hope you do a round two. Either way, I'm not giving up.
****EDITED TO ADD****
I am retracting the statement I made about liking the pain. I must have been nuts! I laid in bed wide awake tossing and turning while moaning, crying and pleading to be free of pain until almost 5:00 this morning. What a horribly miserable night. I'm still going to exercise everyday, but liking the pain...not going to happen!
6 comments:
Love your scrapbook layout Jolene! And what's the really cool mat with the grids that your layouts are on? I think I might need to get myself one of those.
Great post...hang in there!
WOOHOO, you go girl! I KNOW you CAN do it!
walking is easy and one of the best exercises..do you have a treadmill? You lost and I gained..UGGG you inspire me to get out and exercise I hate being winded. You did excellant at camp. Morgan loved the photos..
did you make the big star?
Cool layout Jolene. Try walking in the evening when it cools down. A very effective layout and walking an hour 3/4 times a week is a big help in getting in shape. Put all that determination to work, you can do it!
Go on girlfriend.
You can do it!
Your layouts are awesome. I keep trying (but miserably failing) to do a few layouts. I get all excited to sit down and do them, but once I do, I just can't do them. I've been running kids around all week, so I've been reading all my scrapbook magazines again hoping to get "motivated".
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