Thursday, July 13, 2006
the ups and downs of feelings
When faced with trials you can't help but be on a rollercoaster of emotions. My mind has been going a hundred miles a minute, flooded with so many thoughts. I thought I was going to go crazy...then I decided it would help just to write some things down. So here is a list of the good and the bad to my crazy mixed up thoughts.
Bad- I am scared to death about my biopsy, the pain pills they will give me, and the chance of cancer being in my body.
Good- I'm touched by the outpouring of love and comfort from all of you. Some of you are family, some are old friends, some are new ones that I look forward to getting to know. I am truly grateful!
Bad- I'm so worried about my unborn grandson with his intestines showing damage already and the trials he will face in his very young life.
Good- He will have the best doctors taking care of him and the prayers of so many kind people. I have faith that Heavenly Father will be looking over him.
Bad- It's 112 degrees outside right now! Crazy HOT!
Good- My house is air conditioned and it works great!
Bad- Our new puppy Pumpkin chews on EVERYTHING and piddles in the house sometimes. She really gets on my nerves!
Good- She is so stinking CUTE! and we have a carpet cleaning business so her accidents are taken care of...thank heavens!
Bad- I stupidly agreed to watch my my sisters dog for 3 long weeks while she's on vacation. This dog is a disgusting nightmare...really gross!
Good- I have just over a week left...counting down the days!
Bad- Since it's been too hot to keep the naughty dogs outside, we've kept them in the laundry room. They have completely trashed it! That room totally stresses me out!
Good- Mark says HE will clean it all up! big WAHOO at that one!
Bad- the boys haven't been the best helpers around here this summer. It just kills me how messy they are.
Good- We are having a sit down family discussion to nip that one in the bud.
Bad- A girl that was my friend was horribly mean and hurtful. She was infuriated with some of my blog posts because she doesn't understand my life and she said I was making myself a victim and she thinks I take on too much. She's not happy unless you are talking about scrapping or shopping. Apparently I'm not suppose to share personal real life things??? She is very self absorbed and materialistic.
Good- I obviously didn't let her feelings stop me because here I am...writing about real stuff again. Although I LOVE to scrapbook and shop, there is just so much more to life...great things and not so great things. I do believe that this life is a test of love, service and kindness, so I do take on a lot because that is who I am. It makes me happy. Service is never the easy thing to do, but it is the right thing. She is no longer a part of my life so things are looking up already.
Bad-My bangs were so long and getting in my face all day. My hairdresser is out of town for the whole summer.
Good- I took my scrapbooking scissors and cut them myself. I'm sure she'll be wondering who did such an unprofessional job, but hey! I can see now!
Bad- My sister Coleen called and wanted me to go on an outing with her and the kids today. I've been so sad and grumpy lately that I told her no.
Good- Mark took me to breakfast then dropped me off with her anyways. I ended up having a good time. I'm glad they are so sneaky.
Bad- Mark is going on a motorcycle ride tonight with his friends and I will miss him.
Good- I get to lay in bed WITH the remote and watch whatever I want! :o)
When I'm on the downside of this rollercoaster ride of emotions I know I have good people to cheer me up! I really am a happy nice girl most of the time...honest!
Thanks for everything! I love and appreciate all of you!...yes...even the lurkers. Don't be afraid to talk to me. :o)